I thought about this idea while I was bathing earlier but don’t let that freak you out because truth be told, I mostly contemplate when I’m in the shower. And today, as I did my usual morning routine, I thought of how I would greet you on this probably not special day. We both know that we are often plagued with thoughts that are of negative value most often when it’s almost our birthday. I know how it feels to not completely understand the value of being born despite the fact that you are keenly aware that you should be thankful for your mere existence. I could only imagine the reactions I would get from people when they find out that I don’t see the value of a birthday right when my own is so near. It’s a sad thought to be honest but I guess people like us make it so complicated that the sorrow of it all only becomes a backdrop of what we’re actually feeling or experiencing.
You may not be on your happiest cloud today but I hope that my little gift has given you a reason to smile today. It’s not much, I know. I’m pretty sure it will be a good addition to your new gadget though. There’s only so much that I can do much for you, my friend, and this is one of the few ways that I know how. And although you may not agree with me when I say this but I do believe that you deserve better. People like you who have complexities deserve simplicity and calmness of being that you probably will not achieve alone. Don’t you ever think that there is not one like that somewhere. I may not be in a position to say that but I believe in it. There is someone out there who has not met you but loves you anyway. But of course I’m not sure of that. However, there is a certainty that there are people like me and the rest of our family (you know them. If not, ask me who they are) who love you for all your whims.
Don’t be afraid to ask for more of what I gave you, I’d be happy to supply them to you. After all, you’re one of the few that actually appreciate my taste. I really hope you like it, I made it so that the number is equal to your age. Honestly, I’m a little concerned that it may speak more about me than you but I dunno, I just thought that maybe you’d like that. HAHA. Anyway, I’m beginning to think that I’m babbling but knowing you, you probably expected that already. And so today, happy or not. Okay or not. I hope this makes you smile. Happy birthday to you!
Look, apparently there’s someone else who doesn’t like their birthday as much as we do (https://badlandsbadley.wordpress.com/2011/03/28/it-sucks-to-grow-up-the-birthday-edition/). I didn’t read the whole of it but the general gist of it told me we have the same sentiments as his. I’m not expecting you to read it or anything, I’m just saying. HAHA.
